Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Gimme Gimme MORE

Hey all... Thanksgiving has come n gone. I had 10 for dinner and it was GREAT. I cooked 2 turkeys in the oven and I had NO leftovers. These boys can eat. The weather was warm and sunny. The Florida room is finished and now my attention moves to the bedroom. I have the original carpet from the former owners who had 2 big dogs and I have tried everything to get that carpet cleaned but no dice so OUT it comes. With Christmas bearing down I need to get tuchus in gear.
I actually got all my Xmas cards already sent out so thats done. The tree goes up bout the 15th or so. Have been working in the backyard garden around the FLorida room. The backyard is HUGE ( 80 feet X 50 and yes thats just the BACK yard, the front is almost as big) and I cant do this myself so I am getting some help from a Landscape service. The front has a big concrete drive which knocked out a good portion for plantings, BUT that was still enough work to do by myself but the back has no concrete so its REALLY BIG.
Been hittin the gym frequently and on a new nutrition plan.....trimming down and almost back in my 30 inch waist 501 blue jeans which motivates me to do more....I have to age but I dont have to look, act or feel fat and old. Been meeting my share of guys but only time will tell if any of them is the right one for me....everytime I say that, (the right one) I cant help but drift back to Mr Midwest and his stupidity. NOW I can laugh at it and him....before I couldnt. It hurt. IT doesn't anymore.
Usually at this time of year I get very sad, not depressed but sad. For some reason though this year I am not. I am contented with where my head space is at and where I am at in my life. I feel I am exactly where I need to be right now. and its a GOOD PLACE to be.
I do alot of soul searching and contemplation at this time of year. I review in my head what happened and what didnt; what I accomplished and what I want to do and go toward and what goals I set for myself. I learned that if oyu are not expanding your life you are automatically contracting and I am too damn young for that. Talk to me in 40 years before I intend on allowing that to happen to myself. When you live your life in faith you have nowhere to move but FORWARD. So much to do yet and so many goals to be realized..Gimme gimme more .....

Friday, November 09, 2007

Dont Stop

Things have been REALLY busy here. After almost 4 yrs of being in my home I FINALLY got my hot tub deliverd today. I have a Florida room right outside my bedroom and I now have a GREAT hot tub in there so I can use it anytime I want, day or night..
Been doing alot of work on my house both inside and out. Hurricane season is over and the weather is specatular. For you northerners its like being in NYC in June...before the humidity come in and its dry and warm. This is the weather we now get until next May. It never really gets cold, just comfortable.
Am doing really well this past month and I have come to accept and enjoy where I am at. I am getting ready for my annual Thanksgiving party in my home. I open up my house for all the guys who dont have a place to go; either because their families are too far away or dont bother with them or they are dead. I dont think anyone should be alone on a holiday and I always invite anyone who I know that doesnt have anyone to share the holiday with. NO ONE should be alone on a day when we celebrate a day to be thankful for what we have. I promised that ANYONE who I know is welcome to come over to my home to have turkey dinner with all the trimmings rather than go to a diner or a bar with a bunch of total strangers.
I have been ENORMOUSLY blessed in that area. I truly have a good group of men who love me just for being me and if I never had one special guy I still have many who care for me and in my opinion that puts me ahead of the pack because I have more than one guy to count on since I dont have anyone else. In all the present renovations with my home and the townhouse I bought I have not even had to ask for help. They knew I needed help and just showed up. Try to get a boyfriend to get off his ass for you without whining.. I had been thinking how alone I was since being single for so long but then I realised I wasnt alone at all...I had a bunch of boyfriends who did more for me than any guy who I gave myself to....the only difference being is that I didnt have sex with them because they were my family..
It was like the proverbial light bulb being switched on in my head..
I AM a VERY lucky man....